Procrastination ruined my life!

Original author: introuble
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Topic with Hacker News, which I and a bunch of people from Habr could subscribe to. Today I am publishing a translation of only the question, let's try to advise this guy, and all the other poor fellow, how to find the light at the end of the tunnel. Tomorrow I will post interesting answers from Hacker News.

I’ve been sitting on Habré ( in the original - Hackernews ) for about two years now. I created this topic because I don’t know what else I can try to solve my problem, and also because there are a lot of smart people here.

I'm 30 soon, and I feel like I'm at a standstill. I had a lot of problems and, fortunately, I solved most of them with the help of a very good school psychologist. I never went to college, spent several years jumping from one dull job to another. Now I am engaged in sales.

I myself learned to program on the old Commodore Amiga. Since then, I have learned many different languages ​​on several platforms. Over the years, I started countless projects - more than I can remember. The problem is that I have not finished any of them . I either spent several weeks or months refactoring and rewriting the code, or, more often than not, when I finished writing the code, I gave up, instead of starting to design, document, and debug. The same thing is happening in other areas of my life. Home-made, travel plans, education, career ... All this starts, but none of this is completed.

I am ready to cry when I think about all my attempts made over the years ... What could have happened if I had stopped on a specific project! I used to think that reading Habr would help. This should have taught me that creating at least something is better than not creating anything, but everything turned out exactly the opposite. Due to the fact that other people are able to see the essence of things, but I can’t, I cursed myself. Sometimes it ended in complete stagnation, then all day I peered at the TV or played computer games.

I tried everything that came to mind. Therapy, self-development, hypnosis, a million motivational books, blogs, applications and techniques. I studied everything I found on Google, most of these things I tried. Nothing helps. I am at a dead end and I do not see the light at the end of the tunnel. I feel like the character of Bill Murray in Groundhog Day.

Please, Khabrovsk citizens, if someone went through something similar or can offer something that I could try, please write. I no longer want life to pass me by. Help!

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Changed the title, the original was "Perfectionism destroyed ...", but the topic shows that it is not in it.

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